Thursday, September 30, 2010

Word to Live (and School) By

I recently have struggled with "the will". It's hard to learn at 42 what you should have learned at 2. I was brought back to some words of wisdom that I was introduced to five or six years ago...the Charlotte Mason School Motto. Here it is:

I am, I can, I ought, I will.

I am. I am a child of God. A unique being with a special purpose.
Ephesians 2:8-10
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is a gift of God. Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

I can. I can do all things through Christ.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me.

I ought. I ought to do my duty to obey God and those in authority over me.
Mark 12:30-31
And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all they soul, and with all thy mind, and with all they strength; this is the first commandment.
And the second is like; namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than this.

I will. I will do what is right, even if it is not what I want.
Psalm 119:30
I have chosen the way of truth; thy judgements have I laid before me.

May this be a blessing to you as you train up your children in the Lord, during your homeschooling journey.

Blessings, MaggieRaye

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Who Is Leading?

I may have mentioned a friend recently challenged me to stop telling God what I wanted and to just see where He would lead. If you've followed me long or know me well, you know that while my faith remains fairly consistent with Scripture as my guide, my religious experiences run the gauntlet.

Tonight, I met with a pastor and his wife, of what I believe will be our new home church. See it just doesn't make sense to my logical mind that I might go there. God has so orchestrated the pieces in amazingly unbelievable ways. The connections, the sense of peace and of love. The Christlikeness and servants heart I've encountered is amazing.

They've even offered to help, unconditionally, with our upcoming move. I can't tell you how encouraging that is.

As a single mom, I know many of you have struggled with finding a church that fits and gets it. Our situation is a challenge and most people just don't know what to do with us. My wisdom for tonight is to keep seeking the Lord's leading, and even if it doesn't make sense, be open to checking it out. As you follow our adventure, I'm sure some of you will be surprised to see where the Lord is leading us and how He is going to use us.

I'm so excited that I can't wait to move. And I've not been excited like this in several years.

May you be encouraged tonight to remember that God is good even when things in life don't seem so good.

Blessings, MaggieRaye

What Next Lord?

A friend called yesterday to say that when we'd talked, she'd heard me say that I'd told the Lord, "I want...." and that maybe, just maybe, I should try just being content with what He wants for me. Now there's a thought. I sort of dropped out of the homeschooling forefront about two years ago...but seriously, last fall, I curled up into a cocoon and have just been wrestling with my faith.

It's fall in New England, and recently, I've been thinking, "I'm holding on too tight Lord, I need to let go but I'm scared." For anyone who's followed me long that must seem inconceivable...Me, scared? Terrified might be a better word. Terrified of what the Lord might do with my life if I would just stop trying to be "in control" because after all, we all know that being "out of control" is a bad thing.

So the connection? Maybe the Lord really does want me to let go and let Him have control once again. As the matter of fact, I know that is exactly what He wants me to do.

We're beginning a new a few weeks, we'll be moving, did I mention this is the fourth one in two years, to a new home. Oh, and by the way, I do mean new. It's been totally gutted and remodeled. It will be all new. We'll be living near a lake and the ocean (less than 5 miles from it actually). We'll have plenty of space (see the previous post about how God answers prayers) for my son to just roam and be a boy.

So what next? Well, honestly, I think I'm entering a season where the Lord wants me to focus on a couple of things. One thing is to just "be still" and to listen for His still small voice to guide me. Another thing is to refocus on my home and family, not just in word, but in deed. And finally, as always to encourage you, and to come along side anyone who is just starting the difficult journey of homeschooling, whether married or single. This is my tenth year, and by God's grace and for His glory, it can be done. Some years are better than others and I'm praying this will be the best one yet.

Blessings, MaggieRaye

Sunday, September 26, 2010

When God Answers Prayers

This morning I received an email from a lady who use to follow my blog posts. She said she missed them. It's good to be missed. Coincidently, the Lord provided fodder for a new blog post, it's been a long time. I haven't felt much like writing, haven't felt like I had much to share.

I'm often amused at how the Lord answers my prayers, and sometimes it makes me cautious in praying. I've always said that I longed to have a house in the middle of 100 acres where I could escape. It's been several years that I've been saying this, and I believe in many ways our words are the reflection of the prayers of our heart.

This morning my son looked at me and said, very seriously, "Momma, you've always said you wanted to live in the middle of 100 acres...."

The reason, we're getting ready to move AGAIN. This will be the 4th time in 2 years. I'm growing weary of it. The Lord knows. It's becoming physically difficult as well. I'm still physically recovering from our last move.

The thing is that the apartment we're renting, is part of an old farm house and it is, literally in the middle of 100 acres...there are 50 acres of property that belong to the landlord on each side of a major road way....well, I got my 100 acres, but so much for escaping....

The Lord knows.....

Blessings, Maggieraye